Forgotten God

So I finished reading Forgotten God by Francis Chan. I am not really good at reviews, so this will be brief. This book gave the best introduction to the Holy Spirit that I have ever read other than the Bible itself. Chan explained the role of the HS in great, understandable detail. Along with even better understanding of the Trinity. The fact that the HS is grieved when we commit the "littlest" of sins is very humbling, and should in fact automatically cause us to really think about what we are doing. Here are some quotes from the book that really impacted me:

"Nowhere in scripture do I see “balanced life with a little bit of God added in” as an ideal for us to emulate.   Yet when I look at our churches this is exactly what I see:  a lot of people who have added Jesus to their lives.   People who have in a sense asked Him to join them on their life journey and follow them wherever they feel they should go, rather than following Him as we are commanded. The God of the universe is not something we can just add to our lives and keep on as we did before.   The Spirit who raised Christ from the dead is not someone we can just call on when we want a little extra power in our lives.  Jesus Christ did not die in order to follow us, He died and rose again so that we could forget everything else and follow Him to the cross, to true Life."


"The truth is that the Spirit of the living God is guaranteed to ask you to go somewhere or do something that you wouldn't normally want or choose to do....The Holy Spirit will mold you into the person you were made to be."

"God wants the praise for what we do in our lives. But if we never pray audacious, courageous prayers, how can He answer them? If we never follow Him to positions where we need Him, how can He show up and make His presence known?"

He also listed the different roles of the HS and ways that we should be accessing the HS in our daily lives. As Christians we do have the power to make it through whatever God has for us, but we don't even seem to utitlize it properly. We should be praying to the HS daily for His guidance, direction, and the strength to carry on in a world that seems ultimately more powerful than we could ever be on our own.



Thanks for listening


-KM

Christina Aguilera- Mercy On Me

Lord have mercy on my soul
For I have walked the sinful road
That I’m down on my knees
Lord have mercy on me, please

Ohh yeah

Jesus, I must confess
That in all my loneliness
I’ve forsaken and I’ve sinned
Leaving fragments of a man so broken

[ Lyrics from http://www.songonlyrics.com/christina-aguilera-mercy-on-me-lyrics ]

I could tell you what I’ve done
Or should I tell you where I went wrong?

Well the more that I start to play
My deceitful, evil ways
Keep on growing stronger by the day

Oh lord have mercy on my soul
For I have walked a sinful road
So I’m gonna get down on my knees
Beg forgiveness to help set me free
Lord have mercy on me, please

Mother Mary full of grace
In my weakness, I’ve lost faith
I’ve been careless, and I have been warned
And the devil inside me is torn
God bless the men that I have scorned

Oh lord have mercy on my soul
For I have walked the sinful road
So I’m gonna get down on my knees
Beg forgiveness to help set me free
Lord have mercy on me, please

Woah, woaa yeah yeah
Woa yeah yeah oh oh
Oh-oh yeah yeah yeah, ohh

So don’t let me fool around no more
Send your angels down to guide me through that door
Well I’ve gone and confessed my regrets
And I pray I’m not held in contempt
I’m so lost, and I need you to help me repent

Oh lord have mercy on my soul
Oh I’m begging, I’m pleeding, I’m needing
I want you to know
So I’m down upon my knees
Oh lord, I need forgiveness
I need forgiveness from you

Proverbs 4

^1(A) Hear, O sons, a father’s instruction,
   and be attentive, that you may^(B) gain^[a] insight,
²for I give you good^(C) precepts;
   do not forsake my teaching.
³When I was a son with my father,
   ^(D) tender,^(E) the only one in the sight of my mother,
⁴he^(F) taught me and said to me,^(G) "Let your heart hold fast my words;
   ^(H) keep my commandments, and live.
^5(I) Get wisdom; get^(J) insight;
   do not forget, and do not turn away from the words of my mouth.
⁶Do not forsake her, and she will keep you;
   ^(K) love her, and she will guard you.
^7(L) The beginning of wisdom is this: Get wisdom,
   and whatever you get, get^(M) insight.
⁸Prize her highly, and she will exalt you;
   she will^(N) honor you^(O) if you embrace her.
⁹She will place on your head^(P) a graceful garland;
   she will bestow on you a beautiful crown."
 ^10(Q) Hear,^(R) my son, and accept my words,
   that^(S) the years of your life may be many.
¹¹I have^(T) taught you the way of wisdom;
   I have led you in the paths of uprightness.
¹²When you walk,^(U) your step will not be hampered,
   and^(V) if you run, you will not stumble.
^13(W) Keep hold of instruction; do not let go;
   guard her, for she is your^(X) life.
^14(Y) Do not enter the path of the wicked,
   and do not walk in the way of the evil.
¹⁵Avoid it; do not go on it;
   turn away from it and pass on.
¹⁶For they^(Z) cannot sleep unless they have done wrong;
   they are robbed of sleep unless they have made someone stumble.
¹⁷For they eat the bread of wickedness
   ^(AA) and drink the wine of violence.
¹⁸But^(AB) the path of the righteous is like^(AC) the light of dawn,
   which shines^(AD) brighter and brighter until^(AE) full day.
^19(AF) The way of the wicked is like deep^(AG) darkness;
   they do not know over what they^(AH) stumble.
 ^20(AI) My son, be attentive to my words;
   incline your ear to my sayings.
^21(AJ) Let them not escape from your sight;
   ^(AK) keep them within your heart.
²²For they are^(AL) life to those who find them,
   and healing to all their^[b] flesh.
²³Keep your heart with all vigilance,
   for^(AM) from it flow^(AN) the springs of life.
²⁴Put away from you^(AO) crooked speech,
   and put^(AP) devious talk far from you.
^25(AQ) Let your eyes look directly forward,
   and your gaze be straight before you.
^26(AR) Ponder^[c] the path of your feet;
   ^(AS) then all your ways will be sure.
^27(AT) Do not swerve to the right or to the left;
   turn your foot away from evil.

Proverbs 3

^1(A) My son, do not forget my teaching,
   ^(B) but let your heart keep my commandments,
²for^(C) length of days and years of life
   and^(D) peace they will add to you.
 ³Let not^(E) steadfast love and^(F) faithfulness forsake you;
   ^(G) bind them around your neck;
   ^(H) write them on the tablet of your heart.
⁴So you will^(I) find favor and^(J) good success^[a]
   in the sight of God and man.
 ^5(K) Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
   and^(L) do not lean on your own understanding.
⁶In all your ways^(M) acknowledge him,
   and he^(N) will make straight your paths.
^7(O) Be not wise in your own eyes;
   ^(P) fear the LORD, and turn away from evil.
⁸It will be^(Q) healing to your flesh^[b]
   and^(R) refreshment^[c] to your bones.
 ⁹Honor the LORD with your wealth
   and with^(S) the firstfruits of all your produce;
¹⁰then your^(T) barns will be filled with plenty,
   and your vats will be bursting with wine.
 ^11(U) My son, do not despise the LORD’s discipline
   or be weary of his reproof,
¹²for the LORD reproves him whom he loves,
   as^(V) a father the son in whom he delights.

Blessed Is the One Who Finds Wisdom

 ^13(W) Blessed is the one who finds wisdom,
   and the one who gets understanding,
^14(X) for the gain from her is better than gain from silver
   and her profit better than^(Y) gold.
¹⁵She is more precious than^(Z) jewels,
   and^(AA) nothing you desire can compare with her.
^16(AB) Long life is in her right hand;
   in her left hand are^(AC) riches and honor.
¹⁷Her^(AD) ways are ways of pleasantness,
   and all her paths are peace.
¹⁸She is^(AE) a tree of life to those who^(AF) lay hold of her;
   those who hold her fast are called blessed.
 ^19(AG) The LORD by wisdom founded the earth;
   by understanding he established the heavens;
²⁰by his knowledge^(AH) the deeps broke open,
   and^(AI) the clouds drop down the dew.
 ²¹My son,^(AJ) do not lose sight of these—
   keep sound wisdom and discretion,
²²and they will be^(AK) life for your soul
   and^(AL) adornment for your neck.
^23(AM) Then you will walk on your way securely,
   ^(AN) and your foot will not stumble.
^24(AO) If you lie down, you will not be afraid;
   when you lie down,^(AP) your sleep will be sweet.
^25(AQ) Do not be afraid of sudden terror
   or of^(AR) the ruin^[d] of the wicked, when it comes,
²⁶for the LORD will be your confidence
   and will^(AS) keep your foot from being caught.
^27(AT) Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due,^[e]
   when it is in your power to do it.
 ^28(AU) Do not say to your neighbor, "Go, and come again,
   tomorrow I will give it"—when you have it with you.
^29(AV) Do not plan evil against your neighbor,
   who^(AW) dwells trustingly beside you.
^30(AX) Do not contend with a man for no reason,
   when he has done you no harm.
^31(AY) Do not envy^(AZ) a man of violence
   and do not choose any of his ways,
³²for^(BA) the devious person is an abomination to the LORD,
   but the upright are^(BB) in his confidence.
^33(BC) The LORD’s curse is on the house of the wicked,
   but he^(BD) blesses the dwelling of the righteous.
³⁴Toward the^(BE) scorners he^(BF) is scornful,
   ^(BG) but to the humble he gives favor.^[f]
35The wise will inherit honor,
   but fools get^[g] disgrace.

Not even sure what to title this...

I have been accused of many things, both good and bad, over the last few days. I have been called selfish, unrepentant, in sin, deeply hurtful, someone who is trying to do the right thing, actively studying the word, needing to find true accountability, using facebook for attention, I was told I was pretty, asked for a hug, asked if I was sure, and told that am doing the right things. The past couple days have been confusing. Back to the fish bowl sloshing around. Sunday night I was ready to run. Just pack up the car and go. Had my sister not been with me, I would have.

I have destroyed a man. I know that. I have done unspeakable things. I am a sinful woman and I have deep regret for the life I have lived. In that regret I have turn from those unspeakable things. It is a daily struggle to keep my mind in the clear. A DAILY, moment by moment struggle. I hear a song, I see a person, I hear a saying...it takes me right back there, and I pine for Egypt just like the Israelites. My gut reaction is to shove everyone out of my life and just run to God knowing he is all I need. I have learned that most people who say they don't chose sides........are not being truthful with themselves. How can you not choose sides? I have also come to realize that people are not Prophets and they do not know me as much as they think they do. I am different person. I look at things so much differently. My desires have changed.

I certainly do not have everything figured out. BUT I do know that I am prepared for the consequences of my actions that I do step out on faith on. I have made promises to seek Godly counsel before making decisions, but in the end, they are my decisions.

Feel free to call me out. I have days where I think it was just better when I was lost......

-KM

Proverbs 2

^1(A) My son,^(B) if you receive my words
   and treasure up my commandments with you,
²making your ear attentive to wisdom
   and inclining your heart to understanding;
³yes, if you call out for insight
   and raise your voice^(C) for understanding,
⁴if you seek it like^(D) silver
   and search for it as for^(E) hidden treasures,
⁵then^(F) you will understand the fear of the LORD
   and find the knowledge of God.
⁶For^(G) the LORD gives wisdom;
   from his mouth come knowledge and understanding;
⁷he stores up sound wisdom for the upright;
   he is^(H) a shield to those who^(I) walk in integrity,
⁸guarding the paths of justice
   and^(J) watching over the way of his^(K) saints.
^9(L) Then you will understand^(M) righteousness and justice
   and equity, every good path;
¹⁰for wisdom will come into your heart,
   and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul;
^11(N) discretion will^(O) watch over you,
   understanding will guard you,
¹²delivering you from the way of evil,
   from men of perverted speech,
¹³who forsake the paths of uprightness
   to^(P) walk in the ways of darkness,
¹⁴who^(Q) rejoice in doing evil
   and^(R) delight in the perverseness of evil,
¹⁵men whose^(S) paths are crooked,
   ^(T) and who are^(U) devious in their ways.
 ¹⁶So^(V) you will be delivered from the forbidden^[a] woman,
   from^(W) the adulteress^[b] with^(X) her smooth words,
¹⁷who forsakes^(Y) the companion of her youth
   and forgets^(Z) the covenant of her God;
^18(AA) for her house sinks down to death,
   and her paths to the departed;^[c]
19none who go to her come back,
   nor do they regain the paths of life.
 ²⁰So you will walk in the way of the good
   and keep to the paths of the righteous.
²¹For the upright^(AB) will inhabit the land,
   and those with integrity will remain in it,
²²but the wicked will be^(AC) cut off from the land,
   and the treacherous will be^(AD) rooted out of it.